One more chance………

“Oxygen” says the doctor and Sister is ready with an oxygen mask.

“It’s the third time Sir” Sister is whispering to doctor and putting the mask on my nose.

“We have to Shift him to ICU.” Doctor instructs to junior doctor and tell him to complete all formality.

“Mr.Shabir Khan’s relative, please contact ICU” I assume this announcement was done from the announcement desk.

“Come here ASAP because the doctor just informed that his condition is critical so, they are shifting Abu to ICU.” Says Arman on the phone. I shaked his hand like a child and tried to tell something. But he is so busy on the phone that he did not hear my voice. I tried it again, louder than last time, but it did not work.

Suddenly monitor machine beeps and Arman looks at me .I again shake his hand.

“Yes Abu” he leaned towards me and tried to listen to me.

“Call Ammi and Irfan, I want to see them.”I said.

My eyes full of tears. Every part of my body was paining. I did not want to be in this condition now as I have some promises to fulfill.

 I don’t know since how many days I am in the hospital. I have a feeling that I have always lived like a patient. Many days and night have passed but I see the roof of the hospital every time I open my eyes. I long to see the roof of my home. I am lost in these thoughts.

When Rubina, my wife, touch my forhead,I opened my eyes . Her eyes were as beautiful as I saw it at our first night. Only her cheek skin got lose.

“Do not worry, you will be home very soon”

Even today, she is trying to say only those words which I wanted to hear.

 I am Shabir khan a retired government engineer. I have lived my life in a disciplined way since childhood. I decided that I would enjoy my life after my marriage .When my Abu passed away I was only twenty five years old. I had to get married sooner rather than later to take care of my old mother and three younger sisters

On our first night I promised Rubina that we will enjoy our lives after my sister gets married. I requested her to cooperate with me.

Rubina was so beautiful whenever I touched her body her softness allured me .After we got intimate I felt contented and promised myself that we would enjoy our lives. As time passed we had our child and my decision changed again. I decided that we would enjoy our lives after retirement. Rubina always stood beside me in all ups and down of my life. Sometime her tired face reminds me my promises.

After retirement I thought, I will enjoy my life after I built my own house. God give me many chances to enjoy his gift but I always postponed it for tomorrow. I feel so guilty. I only made promises to her and fulfilled any of them and still, she always stood by my side!

 Today on this bed I am praying - please give me one more chance so that I can enjoy my life with Rubina. I wanted to pay her beneficence. She is waiting for me. I say this to myself every time I look at the ceiling of the hospital. One more chance….

Raksha ka Bandhan

        The cutest relationship of the world is that which is between siblings. In this relation we have all colours of life –care like parents, secret keeper like besties and freeness like friends etc…

The beauty of this bond has come from the same upbringing of each child from same environment from childhood, there is no generation gap, and they easily have quality time for each other and do not have any type of insecurity. Sibling are as thick as thieves. We get the occasion to celebrate this relationship on every Raksha bandan.

                    Raksha bandhan is a festival which is celebrated from ancient era. According to mythology Lord Krishna and Dhrawapthi, Yama (Lord of Death) and Yamuna river, King Bali and Goddess Lakshmi were not kin but they are brother and sister. In each story all brother’s protected his sister in crucial time and each sister loved her brother and respected him.

As time is passed like river water and changes occurred everywhere .Now these days we have different type of relationship like professional relationship, personal relationship, coffer friend, party friend. Sibling relationship is standby of all relationship but due to some reason we cannot enjoy this relationship.

If we analyze what are the reasons due to which siblings are not comfortable with each other or maintain a distance then we find root cause to be us   as a parents. As parent everyone wants their children to love each other and care each other but at the same time we compare them. We think that in today’s cut throat generation child cannot survive if they do not face competition from home. We always compare them with anyone. This may create dispute among them which can lead to unhealthy relations.

So how can they enjoy the sweetness of their relationship?

We are not ready to accept to have two or three children with individual characteristics and prowess. We always desire our all children be successful in every filed, they should be the hero of the world, but in reality each successful person know that success is achieved by own desire not pressurizes by any one. We should motivate, care, guide our child for better living and not pressurize them. We should be ready to accept their failures and all time motivate them to give one more try….

Many other reason of this dryness between sibling like social media, delay in planning of second child after etc…. we have but if we cover this reason we can solve 80%of the problem of this relationship solve.

So on this Rakhi do not to expect the costly gift from brother .just give quality time with each other and enjoy the ebullientness, softness and vivacious of this relationship. 

My Nest

                             My Nest

“Is it my first Kiss? It should be more romantic as we see in movies. It is my first kiss and I don't have any type of sensation. What will I tell when my grandson or granddaughter ask me about experience and……..” Hundreds of questions like these are bombarding my mind.

I opened my eyes slowly. His hand is on my cheeks. My lips are wet and his too. I feel that the temperature of my body is increasing and I am trying to hold him tightly,but...

“Which book are both of you searching?”Nikku whispers and we are parting.

“Romeo and Juliet book” Rohit whispers  with naughty smile.

“Do you want to Ms. Desuja Mam help you?”Nikku say.

“I don’t and Sejal I will message you”

I am Sejal kumari and I am perusing Bachelor’s degree in computer Application from Bangluru. My family consists of  Papa, Mummy and Brother Amit. I have two best buddies Nikku and Gaurav. Rohit is my boyfriend .As every relationship has ups and down which makes it strong, so is ours.

We met in Delhi Public School, Surat when we were in 10th std. My father works in police department. The nature of his job is such that we need to move to a new location every two to three years. When I had shifted in Gujrat, things were difficult for me. Before that, my father was posted in Delhi for three years and there was huge culture difference between both states. I felt so lonely here, because in a teenagers’s life friends are more important than family. Adolescence is the turning point of our life. During this phase we are like caterpillars change into tiny butterflies. I keep myself busy playing with my brother, who was only three years old. I did not talk with anyone and sat in my garden all day long.

I was quite good in studies and extracurricular activities. By dint of my good performance in Delhi Public School Delhi ,  I got admission easily here . It was the month of December and there was a culture programme at my school.I had selected in group dance. This is where I first met Rohit. He was my dance partner.By the end of the programme I had made new friends. I felt happy around them . I also liked Rohit. His sense of humor was amazing, so I was inclined towards him.

                   But after few days things started to change. Instead of feeling happiness,I was irritated  De facto I was getting possessive about Rohit but he started ignoring me.I was not  ready to accept this situation.
I did not want to talk to anyone about this.Neither my family member nor Rohit. I had a feeling that no one would understand my problem. Again, I sat in my garden all day long and tried to console myself.

 Suddenly, I saw one baby sparrow had fallen down from its nest .I wanted to save her but her body got dirty.So I went inside my room to took some paper ,with help of that I would put it back in nest .When I came back I saw four birds flew to it one by one and started motivating her to fly.
They started in morning and before dark, the baby sparrow flew back to it’s nest.

This incident dragged me to my destiny. I explained my pain to my mother and father.

Mummy said “First, you are a good girl  .you have to keep confidence in yourself when all world is against you .You know yourself better than anyone your friends and family may be change but never change yourself for anyone because you are the best” and she hugged me after saying this.

“Most important  always share the feeling , because we are social animals and we can’t solve all problems by ourselves. We always need help.Every bird’s nest is the safest place but it has to fly to see the colours of life. Always  have new experiments in life.When you feel tired then come to your nest ,take rest and fly again. your nest may be your own home, best friend’s home or any spiritual Guru.They always help you to assess your self “Papa said

There are the two keys which opened my heart's locked  door and I was ready to fly .

when I assessed my problem, I had felt that  Rohit was not reason .it was me, because I didn’t want to take care of myself and I hoped that someone else will  rescue me and make me happy.De facto, if you want to see the colours of sky then you have to fly. Yet we are together as close friends.

So this time I seek help from my besty Nikk.

“Nikku ,maza nahi aaya kiss me” I called her up at 2:30am

“First bar me kuchh nahi hota.two three time karo fir achha lagega”Nikku told me in her sleepy cracked voice
Her answer eased off my anxiety. I realized that it could happen with everyone and again my life moved forward seeking new experiences.

Happiness of life

                                Happiness in our life 

 I want to explain you the meaning of “Happiness”, but at first we should know that what is the actually meaning of “Happiness”. There is various scientific definition of “Happiness”:        Happiness is a mental or emotional state of well-being characterized by positive or pleasant ranging from contentment to intense joy.
        Happiness is when what you think what you say and what you do are in harmony.
        Happiness is something that you are and it comes from the way you think.
Let’s know the simple meaning of “Happiness” If you lost everything in your life but at the end you get that person with whom you want to spent rest of your life then a smile comes on your lips that is called happiness or if you want to eat sweets but because you are suffering to diabetes you can’t eat, if you have little piece of cake with sugar free then happiness is in your hands.             That means you do everything in your life which is required for you but when you do the work which you want to do it’s not necessary for you but you like it then happiness is next to you. One feels energetic when he or she is satisfied with habit like panting, photography, dancing, singing, cooking, gardening, playing...Etc anything which you want to do.            The address of happiness is always in side you. It’s not with your family, friends, relative, husband, wife, lover no one they are only source of happiness. Happiness always stays inside you. You are happy because you want to be happy. This philosophy is applied on everybody. Then one simple question is raised why many people are unhappy and some people are happy.                  And if you diagnose the main culprit of this sourness is that you don’t trust of yourself you do all thing which require for your practical life but you don’t do one this which you want.                             Shahrukh khan given a dialog in his move in “OM SHANTI OM”: Agar aap Kisi KO puri shidat se chaho to sari kaynat apko use milane lag jati hai “   so it’s very simple you get only that thing which you want. It only depends of your capacity of love about that thing.                          You can follow some simple steps which will help you for start loving about your  goal of life that is definitely “Happiness “because we do everything in our life for “Happiness”. The steps are:ü  First trust yourself and then start your work with plan.
ü  Keep passion and patience in your life.
ü  Live in moment not in memory of past or daydreaming of future.
ü  Early to bed and early to rise
ü  Always update yourself with new technology.
Follow these rules within few days you will start living happy...  J